benda baik kan

prektikum nda start lg ne. esaimen sda mula bertimbun2 bak gunung kinabalu. l0l! knp semua esaimen ne perlu dibuat time aku tengah prektikum? ada pulak yg kena hantar tym tgh prektikum. jd mau nda mau, suka atau tidak, kena buat esaimen sblm keluar prektikum. l0l!

darjah kemalasan aku bertambah seiring dgn nafsu mkn aku. maka aras lemak2 n kolestrol dlm bdn pun makin menggebu la ne. adedeiiii.... *knp aku harus jd pemalas??? l0l!! bilalah aku mau rajin p joging ne??

point tulis entri ne?? saja mau merapu. hahahaha

pernakah anda mimpi tp anda rasa mcm nda mau bgn jak? *l0l!crita mimpi lg~~ ini tdk bermakna aku dpt mimpi rare lg ptg td ya sbab ptg td nda smpt tdr, ada taklimat prektikum.

hm,,,,mimpi indah. semua urg pun nda mau blk ke realiti. semua org harap hidup ne indah2 belaka. yg nda indah semua mau di delete dr folder ingatan. mcm aku jugak. semua yg nda baik yg pernah berlaku, aku cuba delete. klu ada yg TERrestore tu, nasibla~~hehehehe

mungkin apa yg kita tgk dlm tv atau baca dlm novel tu adalah impian kita. yela,,,novel, sinetron, drama korea,,,semua pun happy ending. ada certain jak yg nda sbrp mau hepi endingnya. point semua crita2 fantasi tu mau bgtau di sebalik ketragisan hdp ne, mesti ada kegembiraan walau utk sementara.

jd, aku yakin Tuhan ada rancangan yg indah utk aku. jd aku tidak harus merungut even hdp aku skrg ne terumbang-ambing di lambung badai esaimen dan tugasan. l0l!
skrg patutnya aku buat esaime, tp memandangkan malas....eisy!!!

oke. aku try utk terima segalanya. ini ketentuan Tuhan. *tp merungut jugakla sikit2 klu lecturer byk songeh n esaimen bertimbun2. hoh!! dugaan~~

owh. sexy skrg berwajah pelik. sejak diupgrade ke W7, aku rasa agak pelik apabila menggunakan sexy. rooney lg la. sda la kecik. sakit jiwa aku *l0l! jgn merungut! hahaha

wokey. perlu rehat.selamat mlm semua. mimpi yg indah2.
*part of me want the rare dream again but other part dun wanna....so, aku serah pada Tuhan. baca ayat kursi n mengucap sblm tdr.

till then.
XOXO

something butterflying

entri pelik. random. l0l~suka hati aku la...td lps kelas, aku tdr dgn nyenyaknya. hinggalah aku dpt mimpi maha pelik, maha rare, maha bla..bla..bla...

mcm nda percaya jak kan.terasa mcm real pulak mimpi tu. langsung nda sedar hinggalah aku terasa mcm mau kencing. klu nda terasa mau kencing, kompom2 aku trus mimpi smpai besok pagi.sgt aneh ya mimpi aku ptg td. mungkin ne la sebab urg ckp nda bgs tdr tym asar, tapi aku start tdr tym zohor. l0l!

back then, i have about the same rare dream. pelik tp rasa mcm real. bila bgn jak, jantung berdegup kencang mcm bru lari pecut 100m wanita. l0l! mimpi yg hari tu pasal seseorg yg ingin diluputkan dr memori. dbsk...l0l! hahahahaha...ntahla napa tym tu sadenli mimpi pasal dbsk.pelik!

kemudian, ada satu hari tu tiba2 mimpi aku dah jd emak pulak. trus eksaited mau dpt baby ne. hahahahahaha....ble ka mau baby jak, nda mau laki?? l0l!! nda logik! ble bha, adopt anak.aku kan mmg penyayang urg nya. cis!!

yg mimpi hari ne lg super duper pelik tp mmg terasa mcm aku alami sndri. ble2 aku mimpi pasal tu?? well, i'm only 23, ok. perjalanan aku masih pnjg lg. who knows what might happen tomoroe? tp mimpi td mmg buat aku tergamam jap lps bgn. duduk dlm 5 minit atas katil bru lari p toilet. l0l!

sgt aneh ya. mimpi pasal psgn hdp ne mmg aneh.pelik. sgt pelik krn aku mmg langsung nda pernah terfikir pasal bab2 relationship ne. lebih2 klu pasal future. terasa mcm hiro nakamura la pulak. ble pegi lihat masa depan. i can see someone whoi've never seen before. here, in my dream. *setan tu kalik. em...kalik la jugak kan.aku bukan pak belalang yg ble tafsir mimpi.

apapun maksud mimpi aku tu, aku harap Tuhan sentiasa memberi aku yg terbaik. apapun takdir hidupku, aku terima seadanya. jadikanlah aku manusia yg sentiasa bersyukur atas segala nikmat-Mu Tuhan. Amin.

well,,,almost 1 in the morning.need to sleep. esok masih ada kelas.

night, world.
XOXO

brand new 2012

well, i've been using my nokia 2610 for quite sometines now. it's almost 6 years,people! and i'm so proud of him~~ n i love him too much to change to a brand new phone. but latey, samsung galaxy s2 really captured my heart. well, i've been eyeing that model since i watch lie to me.that phone is super gojes!! i really love it.

but, under my current money condition, i know i cant have it. l0l~~ sos!! i want galaxy s2. on feb, 25, i make my history. i bought galaxy gio-since i didn't have enaf money for s2, i can only buy gio. it's still an android. whatever. so, my nokia still function properly but i dun wanna give it to another person. i want to keep it as long as i can~

*part pntg: penjual nfon yg cute tu bg cube sbg free gift sdgkan mmg tda free gift patutnya. hehehehe. knp nda bg fon num? haha! kidding~~ yela,,,dia cute sbab dress ala2 kpop gitu. skali tgk mcm takizawa hideaki pun ada.hahahahaha *l0l!nya imaginasi~~

another brand new thing. i bought aspire one. well, i didn't really check that pc while i was buying so i feel a little dissatisfaction. i wanna sell it bac. anyone interested? come n get it people~~

enaff bluffing. so, now. juz return from kk last friday. kk (again) means shopping (again) n finishing money (again). but i am so hepi that i get the chance to eat sushi~~yatta!!!

anything else? i dun feel like going to class tomorrow. God bless me.
murahkanlah rezeki ku. jauhkan aku dr sifat tamak n boros.berkati rezekiku. Amin.

sleepy.tomorrrow is monday,monday means class. nighty people.

XOXO

bitches. headache

i've been busy lately. with what? that's what i'm no sure of. after spendig all my money into i-dunno-what-things, here i am. same as always. life's suck!

well, i've been having this terrible headache since 2012 started. it just get worst n worst. sometimes, the world around me is spinning~ l0l! i hate being not in my best condition. i hate when i had to sleep when i can have fun. i hatre when i had to act tougher when i'm holding back my pain.

u see, sicknesses n pains doesn't really suit me. so i think i better go to the clinic before my flight to kk. it's not for vacation although i had to kill two birds with one stone. kk means shopping n more shopping, people.

this shopaholic disease, i think i get it when i was a good friend with a chronic shopaholic. so even now, the disease won't go. it's not so bad but i hate it eventually.

my headache is killing me n my day. so, till then. oh, did i tell u that my younger sis is married like week ago? hm...whatever. it's not like the world will end before i get married myself. believe in God. He knows better what the best for me.

XOXO

phobia

it's interesting. my headline. hehehehe. i think i have a serious autistic syndrome. but, since i can adapt well n live normally, so i think my syndrome is not that serious. well...well...well... for a start, i'm a loner. *soundtrack:weottoriya by CNBlue. i don't like being in a place full of people. i love doing my things/ jobs/ works on my own.

i am very sensitive about place. every little things must be placed in the place that i put them. if the broom is on my bed, let it be. i hate it when people touch n mess up with my personal belongings. l0l!

our counselor once asked us to draw a circle. i draw the circle clockwise-as in from right to left. do u normally do that?? hahahaha. normal people draw a circle anti-clockwise. only those with autism draw it clockwise. l0l!

then, i hate sharing. people say sharing is caring. but truthfully, i really hate sharing what's mine. but since i live in this totally sharing-is-caring-world, so i had to learn to share my everything with people. so..so..so..

enough with the autism problem. i have phobias. well, everybody does. it's only about admitting it. as for me, i admit that i'm claustrophobic and hemophobic. i admitted it. i accept the truth long ago. it's true that i'm afraid of blood. even looking at the blood on tv can make me having nightmare. zazzz!!! i can smell blood even how small the quantity is- esp the period blood. the smell blooms well.... l0l! hm....i'm afraid of small places. when there's this place full of people, usually i'll having trouble breathing normally.

well, right now i'm adapting since i'm living in a crowded society. i think i may overcome those problem sooner or later. but, not blood i think. i may faint if i see stefan suck someone's blood LIVE-in-front-of me.

now having slight headache. the weather is the worst. it makes my problem gone from bad to worst. i'm coughing. n i hate it. l0l!

happy chinese new year n happy holiday.

sleepy
XOXO

raining

i love RAIN. really love rain. it's my favorite time. when it's raining.... ah! it feels so good now. the rain is pouring outside. the wind blowing. jung il woo is sitting next to me~~hahahaha!! *fantastic fantasy :p

but, since i live in this building, i can't touch the rain. huh!! disappointing! i love touch the rain. it fells great, doncha think so? hehehehehe
so, when i have a house, i'll make sure there'll be an open balcony for me to play with the rain everytime mr.rain coming~~ yeahoooooooo.........

no...the rain almost stop. no...no..no...please don't stop the rain!! #crazyoverrain!

i had my breakfast just now. now, with the rain n the cold wind, i feel like sleeping. okey, i'll sleep in a while. please, continue raining~~

checking my shopping list makes me wanna go shopping badly! ugrh!!! why women love (as in crazily in love) with shopping?? huh!! even i look tough but i still love shopping. n that's why i'm still a yeoja~~ hehehe :)

can't wait to go shopping!!! cny holiday, come faster!! palli wa~~ bi, kajimara~

rain gives me a lot of comfort. when i feel depress, i hope there'll be rain cuz watching the rain makes me feel like it wash away all my worries~ when i'm bored, i hope there's rain. it'll make me happy. when i'm exhauted, i hope there's rain. i'll make me forget everything n just quietly sleep on my bed. when i'm out of idea, i hope there's rain n the ideas will overflowing...flowing...flowing.... da chuaheyo, bi-sama! aishiteru, rain-san~~ i love u, rain!

ren (rain) is also my name. so, i feel connected to the rain for some reasons. i guess. i hope, my future spouse will propose in the rain. i'll be really great, right? hahaha. i'd be too great if it's jung ill woo. or kyuhyun. or lee jun ki. hahahahaha #imagination #flowerboydisease~

p/s. i got my MUET result. guess what?? i did well, or so i think. well, i manage to maintain my band. otsukare-sama ren!! i scored band 4!!! omedetou!! *i'm happy for myself as i didn't have much confidence to score well. huh! thanx GOD~

silent hour.
XOXO

looking back

well,,,it's a pleasure weekend. cannot wait for heavenly weekend at home. CNY..CNY..come faster. can we just delete next week so we can move straight to the next? l0l!

problem is, my pc isn't working very well. not to my expectation. *is it my pc or just the software? dunno. i just hate MPCStar. it makes my pleasuring movie time crashed! i need another software to take mpc's place in case he annoyed me again. huh!

ra.one. hahahaha...shah rukh khan sure roxx!! love u shah rukh~~ i miss his movie~
wokey...jaejong vs jisung time. let's protect the boss~~
*i am no fan of jaejong anymore. since he left dbsk, i stop rooting for him. i adore yunho n changmin now for giving me a reason for always being a CASSIE.

my new crush?? this cute guy with super long leg. jung il woo~~ peace!
downloading vamp.diaries S3E10 n GG season 4~ l0l!

go die serena. let chuck live instead.
XOXO

bitch vs bitch

well,,, the entry sound pretty harsh.but since when do i talk flowers, huh?
things gotten out of control now. being one year away from my final year sure gives me sometime to think back what happen these years. not to mention i need to start thinking bout my thesis. l0l~ i dunno how to write thesis, in fact, i have no idea wtf thesis is. who cares?

hungry for more kdrama as the lists of drama getting crazily longer n longer. but no source. i wanna watch spu myeong wol, miss ripley, thousand kisses, greatest love...etc...etc..etc...l0l~

well, it's morning. wanna talk bout s and b? apparently i hate S character since forever. even B is a cunning bitch n always plotting something bad, but at least she's honest n said her heart out. so, go B. i think u're a lot hotter than S. seriously? she's just showing off her silicon boobs. nothing's worth it. but i hate what happen to C. i hope i have source for the season 4 n 5. i hate downloading them myself~~urgh!

did i mention that para kiss-the movie version with mukai osamu as george- doesn't have any romantic yet tragic love story bout george n yukari. i'm kinda dissappointed. the 18 scenes are all cut-which i don't really mind, but making the relationship of george n yukari helplessly romantic? urgh!! that's so not ai yazawa style of endeing her comic. well, in NANA, ren did die n leave nana alone. in para kiss comic, yukari n george did break up n yukari is marrying hiro. so, so,,,
but people do loves happy ending, right?

sleepy? well, i need my beauty sleep at least a few decent hours. so, till then.
XOXO

new year, new semester

it's jan, 4th 2012. well. if u've watched the 2012 movie *with the gay lambert singing for the ost*, u don't really thing that this is the end a.k.a apocalypse, right? well...such an intro for 2012

well peps, happy new year to me. today is officially my first day of my 5th semester. i couldn't believe it myself. i'm in my 4th year now....duh!

it's new year n new semester so i wanna start afresh. like really fresh. no more scorned woman acting or any betrayer drama. whatever happen in the past is in the past. i'm a wise woman and i'm letting all that happen slide. besides, i'll fee sorry if i let all that crap haunted me for the rest of my life in campus life. duh..it's not worth it~

dunno wha else to talk here, just wanna update my bored-life in my blog. oh, update! my sis got married last month, well last year to be exact. so, hiya to my cool but delicate bro-in-law, ijam. hope to see juniors next year~ i'd love to be an aunt.

another update? my sis-like my younger sis, is getting married maybe next month or another next month. but she definitely getting married before i even got a boyfriend. duh!!! i'm suck~ really. but to my sis n younger sis, i'm happy for both of you. and welcome in advance to the family my another bro-in-law wanna be,sazali.

with all people getting married, should i really considering dating? the answer is always a BIG NO. let the fate find the destiny. i'm not desperate~ *well, i adore scorned-cunning woman like blair waldorf. i wanna be one too :)

till then. night, world.
XOXO

feeling great

wa.....chua...chua...chua...nomunomu chua!!!
i feel really good. even i still have three exam papers to sit, but still i feel great.

my fourth semester ended already. my hardest time studying already passed. my worst-staying-up-nightmare to do revision for this past two weeks has ended. my killer exam papers already done and now i'm relaxing in my room. i think i'll start packing tomorrow. today, i just want ti relax... ENJOY THE RAIN~~

semester break started tomorrow. doesn't that sound perfect?? ah...finally, after struggling through this semester, it ends occasionally. so many things happen this semester. some of them are good, some are the bad memories. whatever it is that happen, it makes me mature. *wow!! i start to become a wise woman^^

empty-ing the room is the hard part right now. owh...i have so many stuffs all over my room. how to arrange them in my tiny two lockers?? *headache.

ah...as long as i don't have to stay up all night studying n reading notes, then that's okay~~

it's almost the end of the year. can't wait to go back home. even the exam ended, i have my private MUET paper. in my class, i'm a single candidate. so, wish me love everybody. AND PLEASE WAKE ME UP ON SATURDAY MORNING. i'm afraid i'll oversleep n miss my exam. GOD forbid!!!
otsukare,ren!!

exam week

it's started right after hari raya haji. so, back from holiday, i suppose to prepare for my exam already. my first paper on thursday a.k.a tomorrow. l0~ *still having time wandering in here?? subarashi!!

time is running out and i haven't finisg studying yet but the mood just isn't right.

i open my book, i try to consentrate but i can't...
i can't keep my eyes open, i can't keep my mind still...
i try to write my notes, t try to read aloud
but i still fail~~ *ikut tune untitle^^

can you imagine how disaster my situation right now?? i mean i have my paper first thing tomorrow morning but still, here i am. typing and everything when i haven't even finish doing my last minute revision. garrrrrrrrrrgarrrrrrrrrgarrrrrrrrr

i'm so frustrated!! how to make me study?? l0l~~ i need encouragement. gimme some~ if someone study in front of me, i'll be studying too. at least i'm not doing unnecessary stuffs like what i did tonight.
*lee senuggi ne album, toninght. coming up for downloading^^

well,it's been a long time, i thought i'm not their fan anymore. but, afterall.. i'm still a CASSIE~not triple s, not VIP, not ELF...i'm a CASSIE even after all this while.

now, there's no more drama on line. i watched every drama in my store. so need to find new drama for my freaking almost 2 months holiday^^ currently watching we got married. i like khuntoria couple~~they're just sweet^^

whatever it is...need to leave. my TDP book is shrieking to get my attention. 00 wish me love^^

holiday

best thing about being a teacher (or even a teacher-in-training) is that i have plenty of holiday to spend. hahahaha. i had love holiday ever since i set my first foot in a hostel^^

so, this time, i'm flying high to kota kinabalu. yezza~~arrived late at night. straight coninue the journey to kota marudu. singgah tuaran to pick kuruk up then straight to kota marudu. i'm beat!! so tired. sleepzzzzzzz~~

sunday.23 oct 2011 the long awaited day. at the afternoon, we start our journey to kudat. SIMPANG MENGAYAU....here i come!! coming here for the first time at the age of 22 is a bit embarrassing. right? hahaha. put that aside, i'm overly excited!! even taking lots of pics, thanx to my amateur photographer, miss nazatul akma^^

a bit disappointed cuz i didn't bring extra clothes. no extra clothes means no MANDI LAUT. aiseh!!! frustrated!! super!! whatever it is, i'm still happy. finally i set my two foots at the tip of borneo~~

jalan masuk menuju The Tip of Borneo^^

here we are....the landmark~~

terasa mcm mau filming titanic pun ada~

cantik tak simpang mengayau??? hehehe

yup, betullah ini tip of borneo^^

ececeh...rasa mcm model pun ada jugak =p

fly high!!! *sountrack: shinee fly high

hehehe...excitednya muka aku :)

truly the end of the tip....plg hujung la ne~

melompat lebih tinggi^^

yup....i'm here finally

hehehehe^^

excited tgk laut tp nda dpt mandi *+*

the sun about to set~

writing memory....

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

p/s: i have a really great time. thanx my sis for sponsoring my vacation^^ yezza~~ *sometimes, it feels great to be unemployed when u hv sponsor-er~~kahkahkahkah

i have the urge

l0l~~it's been a while. mood swinging lately. i write when i feel like typing. classes been very pack lately. all those micro teaching and substitute classes really worn me out.
my last saturday and sunday suppose to be my week-long-awaited paradise but it turn to be a nightmare. l0l~ why?? argh. i don't event want to recall these days in my mind. let it passed,,,like the wind^^

i still have my positive thinking,,,,right? so that's mean, i'm still good. i'm not that bad to begin with. lately...lately as in few years back, i realized my english gone from bad to suck! i can't even spell properly. not to mention talking in english.

but still, thanks to my addiction to korean drama, i still know few vocabulary. that's why i love korean drama. they are fun n in the same time, improving my english. after watching all these dramas, my english still suck anyway.

i seriously need improvement. well, i need to start babbling in english again. i should start talking in english when i got mad again. even i should stop swearing but i need to start talking bad words in english again. i hate my situation right now.

argh....i'm in a very depressing situation. i'm scared my grade will fall. and people will laugh at me. even i can just ignore them n show my stone face, but their words always pisssed me off n i feel like slapping them.

hm...it's getting longer. practicing my english bha. i need to do better than this. wish me love^^

supernatural

ahahahaha....supernatural season 7 available for download oredi. *excited!!!
sda donlod ep1 dan 2. skrg tgh donlod ep3. yay~nda sabar mau tgk.

did i mention before?? i'm a big fan of supernatural?? ahahahaha. i've watch supernatural since forever. dari season 1 hinggalah skrg, season 7. never get tired of it.

dan owh...vampire diaries season 3 also available for download oredi. i'm not that big fan of vamp diaries, but since i accidentally fall in love with damon, so i'm curious bout the story. how did it go~~ *it's izyan who persuade me to watch that vamp diaries. on top of that, i hate both the idiot i-can-do-everything heroine n the i'll-do-anything-for-you hero. it's sickening~

glee?? i'm not a fan. totally not a fan. now, glee's popularity is rising tremendously but still, i have no intention of watching the series. maybe later. i've collected the series for season 1 n 2 though.

erm...merlin?? i'm in the process of completing my collection for season 1,2 and 3. still, i'm not a fan yet. i haven't watch a single episode yet. later, maybe. after i finish supernatural season 7.whatever it is, supernatural comes first~

ah...hoping there will be another supernatural after season 7 end. please tim kripke n bob singer^^

#nowwatching cinderella sister. kau ingat jd cinderella jak derita?? kakak tiri dia lg derita beb~

buat kuruk^^

actually, aku ne jenis malas tulis sajak. lebih2 lg klu ada due date. aku lebih suka menulis bila i feel like writing. so tonite, when i walk along the corridor, i realize how much i miss the star. from my room, i can't see the sky~~ sedih*---*

here, dedicated for kuruki^^

RINDUKAN BINTANG

telah kukatakan,

aku cinta langit damai,

yang tatkala malam

dihiasi bintang bertaburan.

dari jendela,

kujenguk keluar,

hampa!

hanya bayang malam yang memenuhi

aih...aku rindu langit malam,

bersama bintang-bintangnya

aku rindu bayu malam,

bersama kedinginannya

dari balik jendela

kucari bayang kejora

kucari kerdipan bintang

hati merindu

jiwa memanggil,

namun

malam tetap menyembunyikan bintangku.

-REN-

2054 (OKT,03 2011)

*mishiu^^