er,,,sungkyunkwan scandal??

hahaha...sebenarnya aku mau letak tajuk SONG JONGKI, tp aku nda mau la membuatkan si Keratul menyampah dan menuduh aku perampas (walaupun hakikatnya dia bukanlah sepa2 bg jongki) . so, utk tdk melukai hati darlink (yark!) aku ne, maka aku letaklah entri drama yg jongki belakon dan yg aku sdg tengok. hahaha. 

even watak first hero-yoochun adalah watak cool dan macho (kunun) tp spt biasa aku akan tertarik dgn watak 2nd-ah in dan 3rd hero-JONG KI!! yay~~ serius dia kiut gilak! did i mention yg dia jugak super kiut dlm triple? hahahaha... "kerek, sori.ini hanya kegilaan sementara tym aku tgk drama ne. so doa2 la drama ne cpt abes ya"

hehehehe.cute kan...

manly side~

cunning but showing the cute expression.huh!!

ngehehehehe...

wah.....*melting*

smile people r willing to die for~

tada...winner of THE BEST COUPLE AWARD. they look super cute together. serius!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 oke.mau smbg tgk jongki eh! sungkyunkwan scandal.post ini bknlah mahu declare perampasan jongki. cuma sekadar ehem!ehem!

ini masalah hati.

i'm very confident in myself.even people keep telling me that i have nothing,,,but for me, i don't need anything to have this confidence in myself. i speak my head out loud. if something is wrong from my perspective, i talk bout it. but, i do accept others opinion. as for me, i really need others advice in making decision.

these confidence that i have always make my name's written in the other people-i-hate list. so what? i just can't pretend everything is alright when i know there's something wrong. my confidence also make me very protective. i'm protective to myself, and also the people that i concern. this habit makes me got many busy-body sticker on my head. but, do i even care?? the hell with others way of looking at me. i don't want to act all innocent and harmless in front of others just to make people like me. i prefer to show my true nature so people won't hate me for being cruel as they know that's just my nature. 

my confidence that i have always bring me trouble. but i know, i have done nothing wrong by speaking my head out. i have confidence in many aspects.  i even have the confidence to question my superior decision when i felt something is not right there. but, i do express my argument in manner. well...i'm a good girl after all. the only thing that i don't have confidence in?? RELATIONSHIP. why? dunno. maybe because i'm a coward. i even afraid to make friends because i can't stand betrayal. i can't stand the hurt of being betrayed by the people i trust. i can't stand separation. i don't want to shed tears because of someone. i hate tears, actually. that's my ego side.

my true color? maybe some people can't understand me. they kept asking why do i behave that way. my answer? simple. because that is me, not you or the me you expect. i wont change myself just because you said you hate this side of me. berterus terang. that sounds like me. i'm not the 'makan dalam' type or whatever terms people use that give the same meaning.

if i had done something so wrong, do tell me. please tell me to my face so i won't have to listen the cruel words from others. maybe i need sometime to recover but i'll accept those words openhearted. i'm not some egoistic bitch who thinks about herself only. i realize i live in a society. even i hate socializing, but i do care what happen around me. and i do care others opinion. i'm not the type who will rejected others opinion without considering them.

now, i'm learning how to say 'sorry' and 'thank you'. why?? because i hate to use that words in my everyday conversation. i have this mindset 'friends don't say sorry and thank you'. but i do realize, not everybody understand my way of thinking and they still demanding for apology and appreciation. well, do me a favor. don't say those words to me if you are my friend. i still holding into my ideology that "FRIENDS DON'T SAY SORRY AND THANK YOU' 

 

moral of the story: I'M NOT A HEARTLESS BITCH.

heart. heartless.

apa?? kau ingat urg becinta jak ka ble terluka hati?? mentang2 la aku teda chenta hati, jd kamu pikir hati aku nda ble terluka la?? beh! kalau kamu terluka sna, ada aku kasi ketawa kamu?? even aku rasa stupid mna pun benda tu, still i respect how you feel.

susah ka mau terima kenyataan yg aku ne manusia biasa jugak?? kalik sudah terbiasa ne di treat mcm robot, jd kamu pun lupa sda yg aku ne pun human being. human being yg ada jiwa dan benda bernama 'heart' bentuk love. dush!!!

realistic la sikit.kita hidup dlm masyarakat. jgn asyik pikir pasal diri sendiri. kamon la. urg lain pun kena konsider jugak bha. jgn la bha asyik2 urg jak yg kena consider your feeling, abes, kau bila pulak mau consider perasaan urg lain??

i'm tired being the doll here. u treat me as if i'm heartless. maybe in your eyes i seems like a heartless bitch. but trust me, I'M NOT!! remember that. is that so difficult to keep in your mind that i'm also a human being, just like the others? why do i receive different treatment? why? i'm also your friend! i'm not a betrayer or an enemy.

things getting worst.you just runaway.go wherever u wanna go. bitching to the people around you. you should be grateful that u have lots of love and you have everything by your side. be grateful n praise the LORD. don't make that as an excuse for you to feel greater that other. what make u think you're the greatest, actually? i didn't treat people differently. i talk everything in my mind. even if it is shit, i still tell you. even if you are my friend, i won't hold back to make you feel better or not to break your heart. i'm not that i-won't-hurt-your-feeling bitch-type. i'm sorry for that.

so, do tell me my wrong part.what did i do to make me receive this treatment from somebody i call 'friend'?? i'm a loner. u should know that, people. i hate bergaul mesra or beramah mesra or whatever terms that people use, but i hate socializing myself. i always love to stay in my room watching anime while people partying outside. that is me. i'm that bitch-type. so don't expect me to roll around and smiling to all people. so, what is that means?? I ONLY HAVE A FEW people that i can call FRIENDS.

i'm good in enduring everything. i kept enduring everything cuz i think all these things that happen in the past were some stupid acts or just some mistake made by some mere human being.but if i kept enduring all these in my love-shaped heart, what will happen to me?? i can feel the hurts in my chest. my chest hurts so much n it's killing me but no one ever care. what you ever care?? as long as you see everything is alright in your eyes, the everything's alright. never once ever bother to consider the situation of my love-shaped heart.

another little fact. i treasure my friends just like i treasure a family. once i call you a friend, a true friend of mine, then you're a family. so, i can't stand it when my family hurts me. if just some outsiders or some beggars swearing at me, i still can smile even how hurts their words are. that won't make me so down that my chest hurts. but, when a family does that, i'm suffocating. my heart hurt so much that i can't even think rationally.

so, make it clear to me either you are my family or just some people walking around and talk to me. cuz i never get the chance to ask you that, so i assume that you are a family. my mistake. maybe i misjudge our relationship. but surely, i take you as my true friend all these time. trust me.

i'm not a two-face bitch who can smile in front of you while talk shit bout you behind your back. if i hate you, i show it. if i don't like anything that u did, i told you. why?? because i'm different. i'm not an ordinary bitch. i'm beyond your imagination. maybe i can smile brightly sometimes, but i can really turn into the worst bitch you ever met when you hurt me. trust me.

no mood. keep silence won't help me.so i'm typing my heart content here since i can't cry. the tears won't come out. n my chest is hurting me. i'm suffocating here. you just go n enjoy yourself. so, tomorrow, make this clear. am i a family or just some bitch in your life.

kesihatan.

sejak hari sukan last friday n sat, tahap kesihatan aku mula merosot. aku di'hinggapi(?)' selesema, batuk dan suhu badan pulak tidak menentu. kemuncak?? malam isnin. serius!! aku kesejukan okeh! terasa mcm winter pulak dlm bilik aku. dah tu..hingus ne nda pandai stop. tambah batuk lagi,,,mmg nda lena la tdr malam2. haduiii!

aduan berterusan. valentine day tadi kan maulidur rasul.hehehe.kami kuar then buat upacara tukar2 hadiah! yes!! aku dapat byk coklat!! 4 cadbury, 3 bueno dan 1 toblerone!hepinya......... i love cokelat~~ *nda takut gumuk?? dem!! sensitip!! tiapa la,,,gumuk2 pun yg penting hepi!! TIDAK!! aku nda mau gumuk tp i can't say NO to coklat!! sooo?? hahaha~~

tapi upacara changing gift jd tragedi pulak. kami beli bantal n bekas air utk gete 2 tu, adakah yg sorg tu p rejek! terlukanya aku~~wuwuwuwuwuuuu........

penat.air belum ada lagi.serius SHIT!! ngantuk. selamat malam.

saya penat!

mood hari ini tidak berapa baik. kenapa? sebab i'm not feeling well.batuk.selesma.sakit perut.sakit kaki. na,,,add la semua. sengsara owh mau hidup!! tapi aku kan go0d in enduring, so aku buat mcm biasa jak la.owh,,,plus satu lagi prob yg kin rusak mo0d ne, teda air di hostel! AKU BENCI ANGKAT AIR, OKE!!!

aku tau la aku yg plg selalu bertindak rasional dan waras. tapi everything ada had. aku pun kadang2 mau jugak act like a spoiled child. aku bukan matang sgt pun. cuma aku harus menjadi matang sebab antara kita, aku jak yg ble berperangai matang. yang lain semua perangai budak2. masalahnya?? bila kamu berperangai mcm budak2, act all spoiled n merajuk sana sini,,,,i terima. i carik solution supaya everything's settled. tapi bila aku yg act spoiled sikit, trus jadi masalah besar. kenapakah?? i'm not human being ka?? atau ada syarat yg kamu sahaja ble berperangai all spoiled tapi aku harus sentiasa menjadi yg matang.

come on la!! aku ne manusia jugak.ada certain hal, aku pun pandai bengang jugak. klu aku sda bg solution A, rejected! aku bg solution B, rejected! solution C, not acceptable. jadi apa kamu mau??? everything has it's limit!aku bukan marah,,,cuma bengang!! tolonglah jgn buat aku begini! treat me as a normal human being please!

kenapa aku tulis di blog dan tidak ckp trus? aku nda mau di ckp menyimpan dlm hati. manja kunuk! i'm not that type, bebeh!! i'm a co0l person. i did talk bout this before but they take it as a joke~well...afterall, i'm not a whining bitch! but now i'm starting to become one!! urgh!!! i hate this.

so,,,people, take me seriously. i'm not a barbie doll here. having everything on your side doesn't make you the greatest in my eyes.so don't expect me to swallowed everything you did n said.usually, i take these as an act of a spoiled child but when that happen continuously n i still endure, why can't you endure when i sometimes whine n said i'm bengang n tired??

why can't you give me some solution like i always did?? it's not like i'm redeeming my good deeds but,,,argh!! don't make become a WHINING BITCH!! please......

bengang! teda mo0d. selamat malam.

aku dan hoki

setelah sekian lama nda main hoki, tiba2 time sukan ipgkt 11 dan 12 feb ne kena main pulak!! *er,,,aku sukarela mau main,,,,rindu mau main hoki!

sejak bila aku main hoki ne?? kurius?? haha!! aku belajar main time skola menengah.yg ajar aku? liyani.salah sorg clique yg sudah terlalu lama aku nda jumpa.2 years oredi?? erm,,,,,,,,,,

paling seksa main sebab 5 players jak.haduiii,,,hampir patah kaki aku terpaksa lari satu padang. kalau bola di depan, harus jd striker kejar bola. kalau bola d belakang, harus lari ke belakang pulak, defence! nda ka matik??
even game kami kalah, tapi aku puas!! dapat main hoki lagi~~ yay~~

kesan sampingan akibat main hoki setelah sekian lama tidak main.

1.kesakitan pada bahagian kaki 

*sakit dr tumit sampailah pinggang...mau baring dan duduk pun sakit..pergh!!

2. kesukaran untuk berjalan dgn betul dgn anggun mcm biasa

akibat kesakitan pada no.1

3.selesema  

*sebab berjemur kalik ne...panas gilak wey time 1st match!!

4. sunburn. 

sebab nda pakai sunblock time main tgh matahari besinar dengan ringa rianya~

team hoki rumah biru!! (dayang,eva,kellyn,REN,azz)

td p SR belanja mereka mkn sebab kalah betting! eisy!! hampir bengkrap ya di situ~ ngantuk sudah!!

harus bagaimana ne?? beli tiket MAS kan Airasia??

malaysia dan lestari.

Malaysia, lestarikah?

Malaysia sebagai sebuah negara yang sedang pesat membangun di Asia Tenggara banyak mengalami pembangunan dan pembinaan mapan. Dalam konteks kemajuan di sini, negara Malaysia sememangnya berusaha untuk mara ke depan dari segi ekonomi, politik dan infrastruktur selaras dengan negara-negara maju yang lain. Namun, kemajuan yang cuba direalisasikan di negara Malaysia ini jelasnya sedikit membelakangkan alam sekitar. 

ESD (Education for Sustainable Development) adalah satu titik sejarah baru dalam menentukan masa depan hutan dan alam semula jadi di Malaysia. Pengenalan pembelajaran ESD dalam silibus pelajar di semua peringkat sememangnya memberikan rakyat Malaysia yang masih jahil tentang penjagaan alam sekitar tentang pentingnya penjagaan alam sekitar. 

Isu ini merupakan satu isu yang semakin giat diperkatakan. Pembangunan yang membelakangkan kepentingan alam semula jadi menyebabkan hutan, sungai dan laut menderita. Orang utan, badak sumbu, gajah dan pelanduk di ambang kepupusan akibat kerakusan manusia. Sifat tamak dan jahil warga negara inilah yang membawa kehancuran kepada alam sekitar kita.

Terdapat juga golongan yang mengetahui hakikat namun membutakan mata dan memekakkan telinga terhadap isu ini, kenapa? Kerana mereka inilah golongan kurang pandai yang mengkhianati alam sekitar mereka sendiri. Mereka tahu bahaya penebangan hutan secara berleluasa. Mereka tahu keburukan penarahan tanah secara berterusan. Mereka tahu perbuatan mereka adalah salah terhadap alam semula jadi. Namun mereka masih berlagak seolah-olah mereka adalah golongan yang membantu membangunkan alam sekitar.

Semua pihak sedar bahawa beg plastik hanya medatangkan pencemaran dan keburukan kepada flora dan fauna kita. Sudah berapa banyak hidupan laut terkorban kerana beg plastic? Ini satu hakikat. Namun kenapa semua orang yang berkuasa tetap menghalalkan penggunaan beg plastic secara berleluasa? Pihak berkuasa sudah tentu mempunyai kuasa untuk menghapuskan penggunaan beg plastic secara mutlak namun kenapa masih tidak ada tindakan yang sewajarnya dilakukan? Hari Sabtu diisytiharkan sebagai ‘Hari Tanpa Beg Plastik’. Satu hari nisbah enam hari. Jelas beg plastic masih menjadi penghuni tetap lorong-lorong dan jalan-jalan di negara kita. 

Ilmu yang ditimba perlulah diaplikasikan dalam semua aspek. Saidina Umar sendiri telah berkata ilmu yang paling berguna ialah ilmu yang diaplikasikan dan siamalkan. Pengetahuan alam sekitar ialah satu pengetahuan asas yang ada dalam setiap manusia walaupun tanpa perlu tahu ABC dan 123. Ini adalah ilmu asas. Semua manusia tahu bahawa membuang sampah merata-rata ialah salah terhadap alam. Pokok pangkalnya di sini, siapa yang bijak dan berani untuk melangkah kehadapan dan menyuarakan ketidakadilan manusia terhadap alam semula jadi ini? Pihak berwajib perlu meletakkan masa depan alam semula jadi di tempat pertama sebelum masa depan parti politik mereka.

huh??

HUH????? what theeeee ffffftttttttt!!!!!!!! i hate this. seingat aku, hidup aku skrg jauh dr tensen mahupun apa2 masalah yg ble buat kepala hotak aku begegar!!

jadi sekarang apa yg terjadi?? hingga menstrual cycle aku pun nda betul?? GOD!!!! it's been a while since i last got this unstable hormone problem (ya kah ini sebabnya?) yg menyebabkan menstrual cycle aku terjejas dgn jayanya!! nooooooooooooooooooo

penat lepas jog. program REN SEHAT,REN HEBAT sda bermula,,,berusaha!!!

aku dan ego

cakap pasal ego, aku ne masuk kategori manusia yg ada tahap eo super tinggi la jugak. aku nda mau urg tahu my weaknesses, or my bad-side. i always wanted to be the perfect one. well,,,REN kan HEBAT!!! hahahahaha

I DON'T APOLOGIZE. SO WHEN I APOLOGIZE, THAT MEANS YOU ARE IMPORTANT

brings back memory...kan?

 sakit hati mcm mna pun durg tetap takkan berlima semula. pity my yunho! dia kata sbg leader, dia sgt terluka. sbg fan, aku lagi super duper terluka, yunho-ssi!!apapun, keep fighting DBSK!!

 now,,,only two left!!

selamat malam semua.aku ngantuk!

kawan.kawan.dan kawan.

aku nda pernah upload pic mereka dlm blog.dlm fb pun tda pic kami bersama2 (atas sebab2 yg aku sgt menyampah mau sebut)
so, here they are!! *ekceli semua pun kwn2 aku jugak tp yg ne slalu lepak bersma2.ada sorg lg, val0.t aku upload pic dia pulak~

mimie, muaz n nasrun

 hopefully, gf2 lelaki 2 urg ne nda jumpa la link blog aku ne~eisy!!

aku dan banjir kilat

hari ne kembali ke balung, tawau. eisy!! perasaan menyampah n meluat sentiasa ada tapi tetap jugak terpaksa back to this place~ well,,,namanya tanggungjawab.

skrg tgh boring tahap gaban.mau berhibernasi tapi lepas asar ustaz aku ckp nda bgs tdr, nanti GILA!! jd kejap2 lg la bri berhibernasi...sedap ne klu bergelumang atas katil dgn selimut...hujan2 lagi....eiiiiiiiiiii!!! *trus rasa mau lompat naik katil!

balik ke topik entri hari ini, na,,,rituh tym aku blk ld, kan hujan mencurah2 nda mau berenti. maka, banjir kilat berlakulah dgn jayanya di ld. antara mangsa?? rumah aku la...

me jiran tgh siok main banjir!

banjir pun mesti anggun beb!! heels lg~

perabot yg almost kena banjir~~

me kazen n me bro yg kesiokan main hujan

me bro n frens siap main bola lg..

lupa mau mention. td aku terjumpa mr abdul rahman tanjilul. hehehehe. sepa lg, cgu kesayangan aku la. tda dua tiga,,empat atau lima. dia sorg jak la...tgh teman wife dia shopping katanya, amboii...besar kereta cgu!!!

lantasnya?? erm,,,mata aku betul2 berat sda ne. nda tahan!!! mau hibernasi jugak ne. duh!!

ren :)

sunday.dewan tun mustafa.jan,30 2011.lalalalalalalala~~

cuti dan lahad datu

well, cuti cny start sejak 28 jan lagi. balik lahad datu seperti biasa (again?) l0l~~ when i'm out of LD i miss him so much, but when i'm at LD i hate him so much! why?? miss him cuz here is my homey~ my warm-delicate home! hate it cuz there's no big apple, no mcd, no shopping complex for me to berjoli sakan!!

mau carik electronic devices pun susah. ada la, tp out of date oredi n mahal pulak tu...adakah patut!! inilah sebabnya aku mempunyai love-hate relationship dgn lahad datu. but still,,,i wanna go back my homey every holidae! i won't miss it for anything~

well, cuti memanglah agak bosan. plusplus ld setiap hari menerima hujan yang mencurah-curah. mau keluar rumah pun kena think twice. duh!! asyik2 lepak rumah jak la,,,keluar town pun klu ada urusan jak. banking business misalnya. bosannya pegi bank.

I HATE CROWDED PLACE!!! claustrophobic? yup, i am!! i hte small n sempit place. i feel like i can't breath! huh!! terus aku sesak napas kalau tempat kecik n crowded lagi,,,,huh!!! maybank adalah salah satu tempat crowded di ld yg plg aku benci!! duh~ble pengsan aku dlm bank tu. sudahlah servis lambat..erm!

kalau cakap pasal ld, mesti nda lupa kisah flash flood. ne perkara biasa bg setiap warga LD, n warga LD tedalah mau kecoh2 masuk tv nangis2 sebab rumah n perabot musnah akibat banjir.aku menyampah lah urg masuk tv nangis2 because of something stupid!! nangis sebab nda mampu beli banglo dan terpaksa tggl di tepi jalan?? WTF?? salah kau sebab bongok! sepa suruh kau nda berusaha improve life kau?? maybe dgn nangis2 kau ble raih simpati urg la tp not me!! aku pandang hina manusia2 yang hanya tahu nangis di public tp tdk berusaha sendiri. "usaha la tu,,p masuk tv, raih simpati minta sedekah sumbangan"

usaha bullshit!! apa la tu?? memalukan sahaja!! teda bekalan air seminggu, terpaksa mandi sungai, masuk tv nangis2,,,mna janji yb?? mana itulah,,mana inilah.. tolonglah ya,,,,lahad datu ne klu kira masalah bekalan air putus, countless time oke. tp tda lg aku tgk warga ld masuk berita tv1/tv3 nangis2 sebab tda air.